NSFW Admission in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018

So… consider this one of those “Stupid BS confessions to the void that doesn’t need to be said but I’m saying it anyway”

I’m sick of porn. Like… I have a beautiful woman in my life that I’m married to and whom I love.... I’m sick of porn and would FAR prefer an actual sexual encounter. Probably obvious… but still.

Sometimes… I wonder if I’m the poster boy for the Incel Movement. A married man with sexual urges that isn’t having sex with his wife and is, instead, relegated to Internet Porn because “respecting Wife’s autonomy and agency” means I never have sex. I get that such thoughts are dark and perhaps evil… after all, we SHOULD respect people’s agency and autonomy… violence and sexual violence are inexcusable. The fact that Incels consider “sexual need” to be sufficient justification for rape and murder is both insane and disgusting. But I sometimes wonder if people in my position are directly feeding in to their world view.