Silver and Gold in Current Events

I have accepted that hair loss has come for me. I am eventually going to get around to finding myself a doctor again. Baldness does not run in my family so I am hoping that I have something as simple as a vitamin deficiency. Vegan problems. I’m only on my first bottle of minoxidil and I am trying not to get my hopes up. I had friends who never got to have this opportunity. To experience aging. Such a morbid thing to think about. I’m struggling to cope with this reality and I am trying to be graceful. If it does grow back I hope it comes back silver. I have been waiting for my hair to gray for a decade now. Why would there be tiny white patches of skin on my scalp where the hair has fallen out? I’ll have to ask my doctor I guess. I have my last week of holidays next week so I will have to wrap my new years resolutions in that time span.
I felt compelled to try and take a selfie of my body after a workout. Looking at myself in the mirror is not a healthy thing for me right now. Why did I think a camera was better? I at least liked what I saw. My body is actually changing. That energy that I was talking about in my last entry happened again. I shoveled half of a parking lot at my store and did not even burnout. I feel like I am 17 again. I did some overthinking about it and I think I know what changed. I read a book before bed instead of Pornhub and fapping. The no fap movement might be on to something. Last night I did not read the book and did not no fap and today I feel normal. Not elevated at all lol. So I will try this no fap thing again tonight and I suspect that tomorrow I will be completely energized.
That extra check that I got from my old store turned out to be an accident. They accidentally activated my salary over there BUT not all hope is lost. There is vacation pay there that they did not pay out. I have an extra $500 coming my way next payday. I have not submitted my taxes from last year yet, I don’t owe so I didn’t rush. I am struggling with a T4A slip, the software I am using won’t let me leave any fields blank even though it is not required. I don’t have that information anyway. I got to sort that out. It’s just another $1000 that I don’t want to spend but it’s on my to do list.
This was another useless entry brought you in part by: Boredom.

Last updated November 30, 2018