Momentum. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
- Feb. 11, 2014, 11:46 a.m.
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I was talking to Erik recently about my depression. He said one thing he used to do was remind himself in the morning that not being happy does not mean being depressed.
For now, the wave of darkness seems to have receded. And plenty of days I'm "just" not happy, which is far better than being depressed. Because on those days, I can actually acknowledge that things aren't necessarily bad, and I can remind myself that I just need to do nice things for myself to help myself feel better. Or acknowledge that there's really nothing I need to do, nothing I need to stress out over. Nothing to be anxious about. And THEN, I can finally just kinda zone out and relax.
It's a matter of momentum, I feel. The moment I sit down and zone out, I'm done. I need to kind of keep going and going and going, do all the things I want to do. Speaking of, I want to marinade pork chops for tonight and FINALLY take out all the trash. Feels like every single day I "set aside" for it, it's been either snowy or it's already nighttime. Oh shush, I'm slow at everything I do. Probably will want to continue cleaning after that... I'll aim for a 3 PM nap, eat leftover taco stuff at 4, hit the gym again around six. Yes. I got this.
gattaca ⋅ February 11, 2014
I've been told (and have observed anecdotally), that workouts alleviate depression. I have no idea if that's actually true for every case. I can't nap. I've tried. My brain refuses to be quiet.
AnOrangeZebra ⋅ February 11, 2014
Yes, not being happy does not mean being depressed indeed. It's neutrality. And you DOING things to put yourself in a better mood, that is great example of being proactive. Many people think being happy is supposed to be a default setting and that it doesn't require work. Those people are crazy. Maybe more reasons to be sad than happy. But neutral is a great thing. I think the hardest part of being a girl is wondering if the depression is just hormonal or something more.
Timmy™ AnOrangeZebra ⋅ February 11, 2014
Happiness is NOT default, man.