memories [in] 2 parts. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

I've written about this twice before. on FOD. but never like this.

um

I've recently realized. that the reason i'm so astounded when people like my family ring up things that have happened - i.e. when we - oh my sister and I that 'we' - were little we used to go swimming at my grandparents. evidently - is bc i'm so astounded that there's that other part of my life the not so personal horrible dark part that has nothing to do w/ the abuse. or my ED. or my alcoholism. or..........well you get it.

it's this whole other part of me. like wow really that's part of all this too?

also. whenever people mention something about like. what happened when they were 10 is bc I assume they remember it vividly as I've never heard otherwise. [and yes. i'm asking whether or not they remember such things vividly].