acceptance. and idinno. in 2018

yes more from me. yall know me [some of you.]. when something big goes on i keep on blogging about it forever. [not really.]. and if not then. i don’t. actually something i like about blogging. is that um. it’s not w/ fb pm where i type something and then the other person does and i feel like the stupid pm system thing is rushing me. like omygod. and w/ blogging it’s not like that.
um. ya know. maybe one day i’ll be ok. w/ the fact that dr. l didn’t prescribe anything. i’ll look back on it and go ‘well that sucks. but it is what it is’. but i’m not there yet. like i’m. mostly ok w/ my sexuality. or...........um. other stuff.
i’m so emotional lately. it’s like i’m on my period. like i’m just. having a big panicky upset moment every day. i’m regretful i’m disappointed i’m uh. .......... frustrated. i’m tired like i mentioned. ya know and then my body’s recovering. a. from the infection and 2. it’s getting used to the antibiotics. oh and then while it’s getting used to it. it’s causing. they’re causing. side effects. i’m sad. i just cry. during those panicky upset moments. i just cry for like 2 - 5 mins. and then it’s over.
Thing about antibiotics. is that [and it’s different for everyone.]. once i’ve stopped taking them. the infection might come back. which hasn’t happened yet bc i’m still taking them. [yes and this is exactly why other then for a couple wks. though not consecutively. i haven’t stopped drinking.]. i’ve made a note to dr. earp about that. in my notes to her. ya know. at some point. i’ll print up another list. w/ that note and others on it. we’ll find out whether or not it does. but yeah i’m aware of it.
well it takes a lot of strength to fight a battle. obviously. go me. not that i’ve ever. literally fought any battles. no just mental ones. but my point is. the antibios are fighting, the battle. fighting the enemy which is the. infection.
something else i’ve noticed. is um. yesterday and today i’ve been colder, then usual. i haven’t been drinking more then usual [in fact i’ve been drinking less] so that can’t be it. it might just be that the liquid itself, is cold. of the meds.
there’s probably more. per usual lately.