psych. stuff too sweet niya. um and. in 2018

again said ‘nye-uh’.

so.........idinno. the same issues i have w/ niya are the same issues i have w/ my psych. a. the advice thing and 2. the indirectness thing. oh so i told my psych. about the cutting. in that i had for 10 yrs. and i’d stopped almost 5.5 yrs. ago. and that was all i told her. it was. a big 6hi thing the most vulnerable i’d f elt felt in awhile. it was panic. inducing. um she asked if my mom knew and i said yeah. right so we talked about depression and my wanting to understand the connection between that, and irritability. i still don’t completely understand, that so i’ll have to do my own research. on the brain yay the brain an interest of mine. and um depression. and irritability. and emotion.
um. right so my psych. talked about vit. d and she’s ‘maybe you should/it might not be a bad idea for you to.........have yours checked.’. ok well that’s partially, what i object to. cause of ‘oh if/since she has low vit. d then that means she should take something for it which means she should.’ er i mean. that it has to be dpc documented. and i do mean has to. as in it’s a requirement. so there’s that. and again how she phrased it vs. ‘what do you think of.........?’ getting it checked. well see now that sounds more like a discussion. right which is what i like about it. it’s idinno. involving me more. then just this vague indirect thing.
right so the fire drill thing. well. it’s not that i didn’t get up for the fire drill [er awaken i mean. i was already awake. so no ok i didn’t physically get up.]. um. right so when we talked about it um..........niya was ‘oh what happened?’ like ‘omygod oh no what happened?’ vs. ‘ok so tell me what happened.’. which i would’ve actually preferred. like yeah no. i get that it’s sad and i wasn’t responsible and i should’ve. been responsible. but i don’t need so much emotion attached to it. a lot of ladies are that way. too sweet and emotion........ally expressive. i mean i’m not. [right bc i don’t like it.]. my mom’s not. the lady’s not and far as i know my new dentist lady’s. not. i’m sweet but i’m not. that way ya know? [or maybe you don’t know.].
and then. when i told them, i’d been asleep niya not only offered me advice [which i hate when people do bc well i’m not an idiot. i do know how to solve my own problems believe it or not. so trust me when i say i got this. 3 words 3 little words] but it was in the vein of ‘maybe you could.........’.
sorry. just needed to vent. apparently. thanks yall. [btw. again. no i don’t want advice well when do i. anyway.].