UTI, TTC, 9 days DPO? Wtf in 2018

So aside from having a pretty severe UTI, becoming my town newest undertaker, the possibility of being pregnant, there really hasn’t been much going on.

I should probably take a test today, but I really do think that we were a little too late for my ovulation. I feel like-

Ended up getting company, so I couldn’t finish my entry. I’ll finish it now. I wouldn’t grab the pregnancy test from the pharmacy, and it was negative. I am however only like eight or nine days after my period tracker says I ovulated. So I might be a bit too early to test, but I’m thinking I actually missed my ovulation. We were too late deciding that we wanted to try to have another kid this month. But I have bought ovulation strips and a couple pregnancy test online and book so that should help. It’s hard to know when I’m ovulating due to my hyperthyroidism causing my periods to be kind of All over the place.

Oh well, I guess I’m feeling a little sad about it, but I also knew that we were a bit late trying to conceive. And now I know that I have these ovulation test strips on the way that will help us next month. It’s funny though, how in the back of my mind there’s always this “What if we can’t get pregnant now?” Or “Maybe were both too old” or “ I hyperthyroidism is going to prevent us from having my kids fuck“. So regardless those thoughts are still in the back of my mind. It has been almost 8 years since we tried to have a child, and that’s a long time. But at the same time I don’t wanna put all of my hopes and dreams into this because I don’t feel like being disappointed.

The only problem I have is that my appointment to see the endocrinologist is on the 30th, so I might end up heavily medicated to the point where I shouldn’t be trying to have kids.

I was just really hoping for something to be able to share with the family at Christmas time. My grandmother’s favourite time of year was Christmas, she looked forward to it and decorated every square inch of her home. This is our first Christmas without her, and I thought what a nice surprise it would be to have a Pregnancy announcement over the holidays to kind of lighten the mood, Christmas miracle per se. If I got pregnant now I’d be like 10 or 12 weeks by then and my family could know. But I guess that’s not happening, and that’s OK, It was just a nice thought to have. A little glimmer of hope and otherwise dark period.

I am learning about all of these abbreviations that have to do with trying to conceive, LOL that’s funny.

Kristen <3