blame it on the juice get ya feelin loose blame it on the ize get ya feelin dizzy. [and] drunkorexia in drunkorexia

yeah so in other news. which has nothing to do w/ my recent entries. I've been drinking. [actually the longest I've gone without in the time I've been an alcoholic which has been for almost 2.6 yrs. started nov. yrs. ago. is. 3 months and that was hell].

Smirnoff ice cranberry lime vodka [well I assume it's vodka since Smirnoff makes. vodka. though on the bottle it says 'malt' and also 'flavored beer' so which is it? it doesn't taste like any beer I've had] it's pretty good. you can't taste the alcohol. I don't get buzzed off it. bc my tolerance has built up damnit.

actually I started drinking again new yr's eve. and for awhile I was drinking the whiskey my parents have but I didn't want them to know which is why I switched. and if i'm having a dr's aptt soon then I won't drink.

my eating's been. ok. I've not been eating much fruit. or pasta. or refried beans. I bought this new vegetable pasta which i'm curious about which. I've never had. i'm getting really tired of all this damn chai. I haven't had soda in awhile just cause it hasn't happened. I've had a lot of bread. and vegetables.