In The Feels in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown

I slept till about ten PM, got up long enough to make mom and I dinner then dozed back off till about two on the couch. Once I woke up for good I distracted myself with the PS4 for a few hours till I finally decided to watch the new season of Bojack Horseman on Netflix.

Mom left for work a little before six and honestly, after an episode or two I thought to myself, “Well the liquor store DOES open at seven AM* and I have no plans today.” Low and behold quarter afted six she comes back home asking me to drive her to work due to some roads being closed and she dosen’t know an alternate route. Well, this puts off my drinking off for twelve hours because I’m now her ride home and she gets off at six PM. That’s fine, I’ll catch a nap this afternoon and merrily drink to my ancestors tonight.

It is now twenty-five past noon and I binged the entire season of Bojack. I honestly never want to touch another drop again after that last episode. That show hits home on so many damn levels. Each season hurts more than the last. This one was painfully beautiful.

Yeah, I’m gonna stay sober tonight. I can’t answer for tomorrow because it isn’t here yet but can only repeat the mantra from A.A. of one day at a time.

To all who noted last entry, thank you. Got a lot of good advice and some more reading material to check into.

*Yes, I’ve started that early before.

Last updated September 28, 2018