Public? Why not?! in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018

(Meant to publish last night)
This is a public entry from a public servant. This is the kind of thing that would prevent me from getting a Federal Appointment in the future. But the difference between someone like Kavanaugh and me?! If someone said “This has come to light, what do you say?” I would admit, explain, and lay it out for the court of Government, Opinion, and Family. Kavanaugh was caught REPEATEDLY in perjurous statements, but was confirmed due to the GOP slave-state beholden to Trump in the Gamble v. US issue. And if you are a Kavanaugh supporter because of “due process” but don’t know about Gamble v US… you don’t know SHIT. The FBI was told to limit their investigation. The confirmation was intentionally rushed. Kavanaugh was an ordained appointment… not an advise and consent appointment… all because of an impending Supreme Court Corruption Case.

ANYWAY… sorry.... got distracted by that misery… sick to fuck of assholes on this site and others screaming “Victory for Due Process, Kavanaugh Confirmed!” Because… well… really?! The Prosecutor Bar of America has pretty much said, “Appropriate investigation into the allegations has not occurred.” So if you actually gave a fuck about due process you would consider Kavanaugh’s confirmation as an abuse of power… not an example of Due Process.

But I digress. I did not mean to semi-drunkenly start a Prosebox Entry to discuss the Kavanaugh bullshit… though bullshit it is.

Instead, I wanted to discuss something else. Well… something else that may still be part of the same “wheel house.” Because… sex and sexual interaction.

Maybe THAT is why I had the dream I did oh so many years ago!

If I am dating a woman, and I lean in to kiss her, and she says “no” but I kiss her anyway: SEXUAL ASSAULT. Even if Iowa Law doesn’t agree.

If I am dating a woman, and we are in bed together, and I finger her… and she objects… but I continue? SEXUAL ASSAULT.

If I am dating a woman, and she freezes me out, not even kissing, and so I whip my dick out and tell her to suck it? SEXUAL ASSAULT.

If I am dating a woman, and she freezes me out, not even kissing, and so I whip my dick out and force her to suck it? SEXUAL ASSAULT.

If I am married to a woman, and we’re having sex… and she says “Ow. No. Stop. It isn’t working for me,” and I still continue the sex? SEXUAL ASSAULT.

If I am married to a woman, and she gets passed out black out drunk… and I have sex with her? SEXUAL ASSAULT.

I just… I don’t get why this is hard for people. I am a horny dude. I am a horny Dude whose wife rejects sex over and over, constantly. If we were going to discuss “who deserves sex despite consent” I would put myself and MBFITWW at the fucking top of that list! Despite being physically, emotionally, and sexually abused… I waited for marriage. MBFITWW is over 30 years old and is still a virgin as he doesn’t want to lose his V Card to someone he doesn’t see a future with. AND YET WE DON’T RAPE!!

Are you fucking kidding me?! I am a man in a good job, with money, that isn’t “hideous”, and genuinely cares about people. If anyone deserves to have a sexual encounter from time to time.... it is me. BUT I DON’T RAPE, I DON’T SEXUALLY ASSAULT!

I’m horny as fuck. If Raven wanted to FaceChat me as she drilled herself… I’d probably say yes. BUT I WOULD NOT FORCE A WOMAN TO DO ANYTHING, ESPECIALLY ANYTHING SEXUAL. Even while drunk.

I don’t want to repeat myself but… essentially? Here is the Capsule Summary of how I am feeling and what I am saying:

I am
naked
and drunk.

I would love to have a sexual interaction of some type.
Any type.
Be it a series of sexy e-mails, a large number of sexy pictures, someone calling me to jill off as I listen, or whatever. I am near desperate for a fulfilling sexual interaction.

But contemplate that. I am an extraordinarily horny man. I drink to excess too much. I am an attorney consistently dealing with the absolute worst of humanity. I had a rape dream when I was a child. I was first sexually accosted in elementary school. A woman tried to rape and kill me as a Senior in High School. I was almost desperate to lose my virginity in college but I still wanted to “lose it” only to someone for whom I desperately cared for. I lost it to the woman who is now my wife. A woman whose physical form I find excessively pleasing. A woman for whom my love is never ending (despite myself).

I don’t rape. So… to all these assholes saying “I’m so afraid in this environment that someone will accuse me of something!!” Shut the fuck up.
STEP ONE: Don’t force yourself onto women.
STEP TWO: When a woman says stop, stop.
STEP THREE: No matter what she is wearing… no matter how bad you want it… no matter how heavily she was flirting.... there is no excuse to rape.