Night in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018

Tonight’s “drunken” rant…
Wife looked at me today and said “The fat has eaten my husband. Your face is too round, your belly too big… I don’t even recognize you anymore. You have become much too fat.”

And she’s right… I am the heaviest (at present) that I have EVER been.

BUT that being said… it reminds me of a conversation we had in Omaha.

When I proposed… I considered Wife from birth to motherhood. And I liked it. So I proposed. BUT in the church that day in July, 2011… when I said “I do”… that vow, that promise, was not simply made to 2011 Wife. I contemplated as far as 2078 wife. 98 Years Old. Fat, Senile, Angry… and my vows were to her as well. Honestly. That isn’t a line. I considered “how bad can this go? Okay, I make my vows to her as well!” However, during a discussion we had during Law School… Wife was surprised I had considered any of that. She said “I do” to 2011 Chris and that was it. So… no wonder she’s borderline horrified at every “not as ideal as then” element of life.

In fact… the vows discussion metaphorically explains the whole marriage. I made a vow to every version of Wife in this time stream. 2011, 2021, 2053… all Wife Universe possibilities… I made a promise to. But the reverse never happened. That… explains a LOT.