Survey Thingies Round Two in In My World

I can’t focus enough to write a real entry today so prepare for survey hell.

1. Do you have any regrets?
   -One but I don’t consider it a regret because it was never my choice
2. Do you have a deep, dark secret?
   -I’m a pretty open book. Most secrets I keep aren’t mine.
3. Have you ever hurt someone?
   -Everyone has.
4. Have you ever self-harmed?
   -Yes.
5. How would you like to be remembered?
   -I want to be remembered for changing things for the better.
6. Who are the three most important people in your life?
   -Family, Friends, Pets.
7. Was there one event that changed your life and the way you think?
   -More than one
8. Would you sacrifice everything for love?
   -For love? Not sure. There are people I’d give up everything for though.
9. Are you afraid of dying?
   -I was once, Not anymore. If anything happens to me, I did what I came here for and I’ve made my peace. Everything from here on out is sweet sweet icing.
10. Have you ever been abused?
    -Physically? No. Emotionally/Mentally? Way too much.
11. Have you ever been in love?
    -Absolutely.
12. Are you happy with who you are?
    -Most days. I’m still changing and growing though.
13. Would you ever give up your life to save someone else’s?
    -Depends on who it is but Yes I would.
14. Have you changed at all in the last year?
    -Everything has changed in the last year. Everything.
15. Would you ever settle for someone you didn’t feel was “the one”?
    -This is a complicated question and I don’t want to be a downer so I’m just going to say that it doesn’t matter if someone is “the one” so long as you love them and can grow with them. Some arbitrary idea that there is only one person who you could ever be with is stupid.
16. Is there someone you can tell everything to without fear of judgment?
    -My mom. Protector. I would say Lizzie and Momo as well but there will always be some judgment. Protector I don’t even have to worry about judging, He gets me.
17. Are you pursuing your dreams?
    -I would like to think so. Best I can right now anyway.
18. Do actions speak louder than words?
    -Absolutely.
19. Is there something you would never do?
    -There are a lot of things I would never do, this is too vague.
20. What makes you uncomfortable?
    -My mental illnesses mostly. Bad people. Too tight jeans.

A. What are your favourite smells?
-Certain people, cotton candy, vanilla, I like sweet smells.
B. Can you go a whole day without caffeine?
-I do all the time.
C. Who knows more about you than anyone else?
-My mom, definitely my mom.
D. What song did you last listen to?
-Talk in your sleep by Moose Blood
E. Do you have a crush on anybody?
-I’m in a relationship with someone.
F. Do you like The Beatles?
-Sometimes.
G. If you could choose one color to wear for a whole year, what color would you choose?
-Black or teal, you can do anything with them. I hope you aren’t talking about whole outfit one color though.
H. Do you cook often?
-No but I should
I. What was the last film you watched? Did you like it?
-Wreck it Ralph, yes
J. Can you sew?
-Hand sew yes, I haven’t tried the machine yet.
K. What is your favorite fruit?
-Pomagranate or ripe watermelon. I like all the fruit.
L. Are you health conscious?
-Uh. Kinda?
M. Go do the Kinsey scale test, what number result did you receive?
-I got a 3, equally one way or the other
N. Do you curse a lot?
-Fuck yeah.
O. When was the last time you had a pint of beer?
-I don’t like beer but the last time I had a drink was last Tuesday
P. Are you pro life or pro choice?
-Pro-Choice.
Q. Is there a certain food you often crave for no reason?
-Not that I can think of right now.
R. What was the last book you purchased?
-My textbooks for school
S. Where was your last vacation?
-Virginia Beach
T. Do you shave your pits?
-Yes but not as often as I’d like.
U. Did you ever play seven minutes in heaven?
-No? I don’t think so anyway.
V. When was the last time you went out without a bra?
-I never go out without a bra. I barely go to bed without a (sports) bra
W. When was the last time you went shirtless in public?
-Whenever I last wore a dress
X. Have you ever broken a bone? If so, how did it happen?
-No. knock on wood
Y. How do you like your eggs?
-Depends on context.
Z. What was your last argument about and who with?
-Last real argument was with Boyfriend about relationship stuff

I’m gonna go with whatever pops into my head first for this one, I think.

1:A song you like with a color in the title:
-Does Colors count? if not Brown Eyed Girl. Reminds me of my mom.
2:A song you like with a number in the title:
-45 by Gaslight Anthem
3:A song that reminds you of summertime:
-Say You Like Me by We The Kings
4:A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about:
-Cold by Crossfade,
5:A song that needs to be played LOUD:
-Sound of Silence by Disturbed
6:A song that makes you want to dance:
-Blackout by Breathe Carolina
7:A song to drive to:
-Anywhere I may roam by Metallica
8:A song about drugs or alcohol:
Caribou Lou by Tech 9
9:A song that makes you happy:
-I’ll name the dogs by Blake Shelton
10:A song that makes you sad:
-Until Then by Prozak. Blame Ali for that one…
11:A song that you never get tired of:
-Oh god, this is harder to answer now…This week probaby talk in your sleep by Moose Blood.
12:A song from your preteen years:
-Anything by Avril Lavigne
13:One of your favorite 80’s songs:
-Don’t stop Believin’
14:A song that you would love played at your wedding:
-All about Us by he is we and owl city
15:A song that is a cover by another artist:
-Be Good by Emily Kinney
16:One of your favorite classical songs:
-I can’t think of one right now
17:A song that would sing a duet with on karaoke:
-Hold on til May by Pierce the Veil, There are a bunch but I can’t think of any
18:A song from the year that you were born:
-Better man by Pearl Jam
19:A song that makes you think about life:
-Never Grow Up by Taylor Swift
20:A song that has many meanings to you:
-Those Nights by Skillet, Watch Over You by Alter Bridge
21:A favorite song with a person’s name in the title:
-Helena by My Chemical Romance
22:A song that moves you forward:
-Battle Scars by Paradise Fears
23:A song that you think everybody should listen to:
-I can’t think of one right now
24:A song by a band you wish were still together:
-Handwritten by Gaslight Anthem
25:A song by an artist no longer living:
-Heavy by Linkin Park
26:A song that makes you want to fall in love:
-Say you won’t let go by James Arther
27:A song that breaks your heart:
-Until Then by Prozak
28:A song by an artist with a voice that you love:
-House on Fire by Rise Against
29:A song that you remember from your childhood:
-Family Portrait by Pink and Picture by Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow
30:A song that reminds you of yourself:
-Count on me by Default

Are you “with” the very last person you kissed?
-Yes
Ever dated/kissed a someone with the name Casey, Tyler, Ryan, Jordan, Colton, Rebecca, Samantha, Lauren, Taylor, or Ashley?
-I dated a Ryan
Was your last kiss, standing up, sitting down, or lying down?
-Lying down
Are you happy with the choices you’ve made?
-Yes.
Are you excited for anything?
-Nothing specific, Halloween
Do you hate the last person you kissed?
-Some days. Kidding, No I don’t.
You’re stuck in an elevator with one of your worst enemies, what do you do?
-I don’t have enemys and I could be civil with anyone I just thought of.
Will this weekend be a good one?
-It motherfucking better be
Are you mad at someone right now?
-Not right this minute.
Do you like to listen to the radio in the car?
I’d rather pick the songs but yes, Music is a must.
Do you sleep with a fan on?
-Yes, two in the summer.
How is your hair right now?
-Dirty, thrown up in a halfassed bun.
Have you ever broken up with someone for someone else?
-No.
How many windows are open on your computer?
-9
How tall are you?
-5 foot 5
Is something bothering you?
-Isn’t it always?
Have you ever taken a shower with anyone before?
-Yes.
Have you ever laughed at something that wasn’t meant to be funny?
-Yes, blame my mom.
Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex “Fuck you”?
-I tell people Fuck you all the time but I rarely mean it in a bad way, I have before though.
Do you like to cuddle?
-I am a cuddle fiend
Have you done anything sneaky lately?
-Uh. Kinda?
Is your hair clean?
-Nope
Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
-I barely slept let alone smiled. No I went to bed grumpy.
Were you happy when you woke up today?
-No I was worried about the time
What are you drinking right now?
-Nothing, water
Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
-Always
Does someone have feelings for you?
-Yes. From what I’ve gathered more than one someone
Have you ever been cheated on?
-It’s possible but I think I was broken up with first. Then there’s the 11 day grey area with Cole..Idk.
Are you hard to please?
-Not usually.
What are you craving right now?
-A nap.
How are you feeling right now?
-Pissed about my internet provider and mildly annoyed with everything else.
What are you sick of?
-This stressful bullshit. Like give me 5 goddamned minutes to breathe
Are you missing anyone/something?
-always.
Relationship to the last person you called?
-Daughter
Could you date someone shorter than you?
-Yeah, Height isnt important.
Is there anybody you just wish would fall of the planet?
-Some days.
Do you wear glasses?
-Every day
Where did you sleep last night?
-My bed with Roxie
Do you straighten your hair?
-My hair is straight
What color shirt are you wearing?
-Black, it’s got the black panther on it.
Do you have a best friend?
-A few.
Do you wish you had the chance to go back in time and change something now?
-Yes.
Who is the last person you got a text from?
-My mom
Are you excited for winter?
-Dreading it, actually.
When are you at your happiest?
-Recently? Cuddled on the couch with my roommates watching a movie. If not, Road trips with Protector.
Is there anything you wish you did today? Why haven’t you done it?
-Yes, because I’m too stressed out about other things to focus on it right now.
Do you prefer to spend your time indoors or outdoors?
-Outdoors if I won’t freeze to death.
What were you doing before you started this survey?
-The survey above it, watching a toddler learn the world.
Can you honestly say that you love yourself?
-some days
How many people have you kissed?
-I don’t want to sit here and count right now
Do you just feel awkward when you dance?
-Yeah
Do you think you spend too much time feeling upset?
-I have ~depression~ so yes
Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?
-There are a few
Do you own a pair of uggs?
-Nope
What are your plans for tomorrow?
-Work, hopefully something productive.
Has the person you have feelings for ever told you that you’re attractive?
-He’s my boyfriend of 5 years so I hope so.
Can you get over people easily?
-Depends on the situation
Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay?
-Um. This is a conversation I’m not getting into.
How was your weekend?
-Stressful
Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
-Someone I was friends with in my freshman year of highschools little brother.
How do you feel right now?
Really fucking tired, didn’t I answer this already?
Do you hide your feelings or show them?
-Depends on situation, I can do either. Most times I show them because there’s no point in bottling things up. it only comes out later anyway.
Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
-I like them both. It’s the middle area I struggle with.
What is the last thing you cooked today?
-I microwaved the baby a hotdog
What do you always take with you?
-Gojira (not always.), My phone
Last person you drove around in a car with?
-my mom to work
Do you think relationships are hard?
-They can be
What are your plans for this weekend?
-Probably try to get as much missing work as possible done without feeling like dying.
Any friends who are constantly venting about their significant other?
-I am that friend. But also yeah.
Have you ever been ice-skating?
-Once (Twice?)
Does the sound of rain at night help you sleep?
-Depends on my mood but usually yes.
Have you ever seen an albino person, in person?
-I don’t know
Do you like Fuze drinks?
-I don’t think I ever had one
Did the end of Hamilton make you sad?
-I haven’t seen or listened to all of it
Have you ever worn a pair of scrubs?
-No
Do you obsessively apply lip-gloss or lip balm?
-Chapstick, I have to. I’m consta-dehydrated so my lips get dry.
Anything in your room that you’re hiding from your parents or someone else?
-Not really.
Do you think you’d have what it takes to shoot someone if you had to protect yourself?
-Me? no. Someone I care about? Without a second thought.
What’s your most noticeable flaw?
-Physically? I’m not sure. Personality? Probably that I’m always late even when I’m on time.
And what’s your best feature?
-Physically? Eyes probably. Tattoos. Personality? Ask my friends. I’d say my loyalty or advice.
Have you ever walked into a massive cobweb?
-Why would you make me feel that again?
When you can tell that someone’s lying, do you call them out on it?
-Depends on the situation but usually yes.
Have you ever hallucinated?
-I’m not sure.
Do you find serial killers fascinating?
-Doesn’t everyone?
Do you like Musicals?
-Yes
Is your hair damaged?
-I bleached it so I guess so.
Do you live with anyone that you try to avoid at all costs?
-Some days
Who was the last person you threw out of your life?
-Jesus fuck…Uh… Logan?
Are you wearing socks?
-And shoes
Do you regret something you did yesterday?
-No?
When was the last time you cried?
-Day before yesterday
Why were you crying?
-PTSD. Well, Because of an argument with someone.
Whats the last thing you ate?
-Peanutbutter Toast
What kind of bottoms are you wearing?
-Jeans
What do you hear right now?
-Baby toy and babbles
How many hours did you sleep last night?
-Like 2? Maybe? Over the course of 6 or 7
Is something bothering you right now?
-Didn’t I answer this already too?
In the past week have you gotten sick?
-I am not jynxing myself.
In the past week have you felt stupid?
-Yeah
In the past week have you got your hair cut?
-No
What were you doing at 9 AM this morning?
-Working
In the past week have you felt sad?
-Yes
Has someone disappointed you recently?
-More than one someone.
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
-Absolutely.
If you could pack up and move, would you?
-I just did but it depends on who I would be with.
Do you hate when people smoke around you?
-Sometimes
Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
-Texted? Krista, Jake and my mom. Messaged? Roomates and sister

That’s all I have time for right now. I may do more later, I’m in a typey mood.