August...again in Everything Else

Sometimes I wonder if this sight should be called SexBox. Seriously so many entries I see on the front page are all about sex.

Anyway, that was a side note.

August is all but done and once again it was a complete disaster. I lost a week and a half of work due to kidney stones. My second procedure is in two days and I still have no information on what time, prep anything. I know prep is just no food or water, which is super fun if the surgery is late in the day because you know, no food or water! And then they ask for a urine sample. Like I haven’t had anything liquid except the mm of saliva I have been able to produce, but sure let me try to squeeze some liquid out of my bladder. And if they ask me one more time if I am pregnant and then run a pregnancy test I am going to grieve the charges. I have had three tests since this shit started plus a CT, so it is pretty clear there is no tenant in the baby box! UGH! It is going on three weeks of this misery. I have had a stent in my right urethra for two weeks and it hurts and causes more discomfort than the stone.

A week and a half of work lost is big when that is my time to work on special projects. I have a full task list of overdue items because these stones. It is frustrating as hell. Thankfully I have sick leave, but I wish I would have taken some of the work home to do while resting. I could have gotten a lot of stuff done. Now to try to squeeze it in to September with the audit and new/expanded responsibilities? I don’t see it happening. I MIGHT be able to pawn one task off in October and some ap off permanently, but I am taking on more than that. I love it, but at the same time, I am worried the stress from three years ago is going to come back and my blood pressure is going to be through the roof!

Also not helping, is not knowing how much all of this medical stuff is going to cost me. I am hoping I just have to pay my ridiculously high deductible and co-pays. If I have to pay more than that…well the bill is already over $20,000 with another surgery to go. It makes me more nauseous than the thought of having to bend over to shave my legs before surgery because, while I will be out, I would like to have shaved legs. It makes my tattoo look better.

I have done zero work in the house other than cleaning my bathroom. Well half of the cupboards and counter/toilet/etc. Because, I can’t bend over and a lot of movement hurts like a mofo.

I was super emotional a few days after the first surgery. It came out of nowhere. Well some of it did, the rest was hormones. I just cried for no reason. The next day crying was for no reason + sadness of saying goodbye to Cooper. Haven’t cried since the 17th though so that is a plus. Hoping it doesn’t happen again. I figure this should work out perfectly. Take Thursday and Friday off, then long weekend, puts me back for billing and I should be a-ok, as long as the next stent comes out on Friday like I am planning. If that doesn’t happen, I don’t know what I will do. I have to be at work on the 4th. Even if my bladder and kidneys are falling out of my body, I have to be here.

Time to go search for a missing batch of checks and hit the bank. Because that is what I need to deal with right now. Plus going up to PC for the deposit....do I have the strength for that?