Goldfish in In My World

Skye and I finally talked some last night which of course turned into a lot of me crying. He asked “Why are we still doing this?” and I said “Because I fucking love you and I want to be with you. why are you doing this?” “Because I love you”

Finally got out of him that he hates when I talk about Ali because “he sounds like everything you could ever want and it’s not me”.

I told him that I always chose him but I needed him to understand what a huge loss Ali was to me.

I asked him if he loved me or if he’d just comfortable and he couldn’t answer that. I asked him if he wanted to move in still. He said yes. I asked him if he wanted to move in because it’s me or because it’s somewhere he can afford and not his parents house and he couldn’t answer that either.

I guess things are fixed for now. Time will tell.

Before he left I asked him if he still wanted to be with me and he said yes.