evan & i in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done. sept. 3, 2015 in Evan

‘ yes more on this. um. i’m at odds w/ him bc he’s not giving me exactly what i want. which is to. 1: agree w. me 2: tell me fuking verbatim that i don’t deserve to be treated this way. i’m referring to the amber situation. and that i’m not making too much of it. unless he things i am in which case. don’t say anything.

so yeah. yesterday in the park i got frustrated w/ him for this v. thing. and he just sat there and listened and was good about it. see this is the problem i have w/ guys. well w/ the guys that i know. is that they’re so godamn nonemotional about things. and i want him to be emotional. so i feel like he cares. i want to know that this is upsetting someone else. it’s frustrating as hell when they don’t. i’ve known him when he’s all angry. and so i want him to be that way w/ this. and even moreso bc we’re going out...........and when he’s not. well like i said i feel like he doesn’t care.

i know what to do about this, so. ‘