Work, BD drama, back problems galore. in Since OD is shutting down....

Ok so I’ll start with work. There’s a new manager and she’s a royal fucking bitch. She treats everyone like complete shit when we get super busy and I don’t even think she’s fully aware of her behavior. I have noticed how NO ONE has anything nice to say about her, including me. I don’t like how she’s trying to change everything even the schedule because she doesn’t want anyone to have a set schedule. Well, some of us have to have a set schedule because we have other commitments!

BD drama. Yeah where do I start? We had contact about 2 weeks ago where it’s just the same old shit about how I’m keeping him from being a Dad and how I’m just about his money and I’m jealous blah blah blah…well come to find out he may or may not have fathered another child and the girl had told my friend that he’s taking videos of himself having sex with underage girls and has these videos on his hard drives. Again, there’s even more reason to keep him from my child. We spent the better part of 2 hours arguing back and forth. I check the mail where I’m notified that daycare is going to be charging me more and I go to text him to I guess see if there’s any way he could maybe take some responsibility in paying for some of it and I got text back from someone saying I was a bitch and he isn’t gong to talk to me. I then decide to change my number. I just have to break away from this.

He is truly the most evil, fucked up, broken individual I have ever known and I’m absolutely devastated that my child will never know him. He’s pulled so much crap that I don’t feel comfortable with him being around her and question his patience. He was here one day and let her cry in her bed while he laid on my bed playing on his phone for 15 minutes. I got out of the shower and told him that was neglect and I’m worried about my daughter ever being alone with him. He has shown more than once that he will ignore/mistreat her when I’ve made him mad.

Anyways, my back isn’t good. I’ve noticed for a couple of years now that I get cramps in my middle/lower back that I’ve never had before, I get pins and needle sensations and I want to cry every time I stand up straight. I went to the dr the other day and I have 1 of 2 conditions where basically my discs are rotting away and I have fracture in my vertebra. I’ve always had back pain and now, it’s even worse. My dr wants me to do physical therapy so I’m going to see how much that will cost with my insurance. There’s also stretches I can do and I’ll do my ice/heat as well.

My Mom has been around more lately. She will come and take us out to lunch and help with the baby when I have stuff I need to go do. It’s been really helpful. I still don’t get to see my niece. I randomly showed up at my brothers house last weekend and saw her and promised her I’d come again today but he gave some cock and bull story and I didn’t get to see her. It is what it is.

Anyways, I gotta go lay down my back is killing me.