No. in Friends With the Benedicts

I can't do this I'm sorry. I can't be here. At least not right now. I got a note telling me to move on and be glad I have somewhere to write and I lost it on that person and if she/he is reading I am sorry, I am too emotional for this! I will leave my account here but I won't be back probably. I have most of you on FB anyway and I will just wait for EWS' diary site and if I see you over there, I see you. If not, I hope you are happy here. I tried, I did. But today is no better and I still feel on the verge of tears. My brain chemistry has radically changed and that's why I take the Elavil, it usually keeps me from being too emotional but it's not working right now. I wanna write in OD about the loss of OD. LOL. And I can't. So, that's that. And I also can't stay here. I cannot come here and see people writing like there is nothing wrong. And I cannot get notes like that, even if they are in the best of intentions (I don't think it was but whatever). I will see yall around on FB. I love you all.