2nd job for me? No job him, begging for affection in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman

Talan still trying to find a job still no luck. He keeps bringing me bills to pay on my small paycheck i give him the card and cry. 40 hours still isnt enough to pay the bills. I am so tired being the only one working. I often think i need psychiatric help but i can’t afford to be commited. Everything count on whether i keep working. Maybe i need to get a second job? I dont know what to do.

I tried to get intimate with Talan i manage to get him away from the xbox that was an accomplishment i thought i couldnt do. He came in the bedroom and he didnt appear interested. He said he doesnt understand how i could find a fat man like him attractive. He said he was depressed over not having a job and left. I have been trying for days for affection. I gave him a massage kissed him. Told him how handsome he is nothing! I am completely against cheating but the more i am rejected the more i understand why people do it. He is 26 I am 31. I am tired of begging for sex. I know men who are willing me but i dont because i am monogamous.

I tried get him to go on a picnic with me he refused. He said it cost to much money. We already have the food picnic area less than 10 miles from the house! I wanted him to go with me to look around at Magic Mart he refused.

I hate his xbox. Tempted to detroy it. I am not a gamer i dont play games i am to busy trying to deal with life.

For the love of god pay attention to me. I walk around nude blocking his game. I offer to lay him to be shot down. Wtf am i doing wrong? November we will be together 5 years. Why am i only one showing love?