expected today in Second 1st

Dizzy still today. I’ve made note for what to talk to the doctor about. Honestly starting to think temporary disability might be a good idea. I don’t know. I’m just tired and dizzy.... and foggy.... and can’t seem to do a damn thing about it. Took some meds took a nap. Fell a tad better but not way better.

Posted in the Forum on FB this morning and got a coupe responses to my complaints.... posted Black Vultures (see previous entry? or the one before that) and got nothing? I’m going to try to make this forum what I need it to be. Post inspirational and positive things when I feel okay or hopeful. Maybe others will start doing the same. So far they just complain a lot but are also there to tell me I’m not alone and wish me luck when I complain.....so it’s not all bad.

I am super stressed out this morning about my job. About this FMLA thing..... about the OT.... about if Rocky has to do it alone.... about how even though I say I would do Uber/Lyft and Mturk I’m afraid I won’t be able to focus on those things because driving can be difficult. How I want a bread machine but am afraid to spend the money. I want another nap but I won’t be able to sleep tonight and Friday is regular shift so I really should try harder. Suck it up Buttercup. Stop being such a pansey. I’m taking what steps I can to keep the job as long as I can..... I can’t really imagine me without a job all together. Things were starting to get silly back when I was out of work like 3 weeks after the Gall bladder surgery.

Rocky is either going to go to work late or call out to go to my appointment with me today. I have a bunch of stuff I’ve noted to talk about. Including but not limited to a hearing aid and the FMLA issues.