The assessment in Second 1st

Sammy (the brother in law) asked me last night if I could help him with a budget. The only time we are going to have to do that will me early afternoon Wednesday. After I get back from the doc and before groceries..... i think anyways..... I’m not so sure there won’t be time today.
I feel a bit dizzy this morning.... I’m at probably 40% I feel like I KNOW it’s sleep....If I could just sleep another 2 hours I’d be at least 75% but that’s not going to happen. At least not till Wednesday. I mean I can’t insure that my body won’t wake up at 3:30 that day either.... though I will be sure to reset alarms tonight so they don’t go off at 4 and 4:30......I told Jerry I wouldn’t be there so I won’t have to “call in” as far as I’m aware he sent an email.

I honestly feel like I should call out today and spend the day trying to straighten out the FMLA but I don’t feel good enough to form a really good argument this morning. it would have to come after some major sleep. .... which I could do.... and I’d have Rocky cause it’s his day off.... I hate this. I’ve actually been thinking about looking for another job but no matter what I would end up with it would be a huge pay cut and that is not going to help with the unfortunate long term issue. This is going to get worse and I’m not going to be able to work after awhile. I need to get ready for that and the OT will help..... but damn am I tired..... and very disappointed in both the Doctor and the FMLA system at work..... my head weights 100 lbs, my arms feel like jelly.... The world has a slight turn.... a funk.... an unease.... and brain fog..... I need that cup of coffee I can no longer have. I need to find some alternative to that. I’ve been meaning to get some B12 or something.....

The list of pros is far out weighing the list of cons this morning.

I woke Rocky for a short conversation about if he would get up early if I called out so we could go to the doctor and talk to someone about the FMLA retardation. .... I”m feeling a tad dizzy just from standing talking to him. I need to lay down. I need to take something.... I don’t know what I ate.... I don’t even think it’s that.... it’s all this working.... this stress… (physical with work and mental with new limitations) ..... I paused took a breath....

Dialed and hoped he didn’t pick up. He did :(. “Daniel I’m not going to be in today. I’m already getting dizzy and I know it’s going to get worse. I’m just going to take something and go back to bed. I talked to Tyler about the FMLA he said 3 days and that obviously isn’t going to be enough so when I get up I’ll go talk to the doctor about it.” “Okay.” I always say way more than I need to I’m sure.

Now my hopes for this week are a bit renewed. After some helpful drugs and a nap..... dishes, laundry, groceries, doctor..... maybe even get to do the budget thing with Sammy today! He goes to work at 4 that’s there should be plenty of time..... though he was watching TV when I got up.....