Fuck your expectations in Elm

Fuck your expectations I am doing just fine.
Are you ever really around enough to know what’s right?
The fact that I care so much about doing well.
Makes me believe that I am doing my best.
So fuck your expectations.
I don’t care to hear the rest.
If you had any empathy and cared
You would try to understand
And wouldn’t treat me like I am acting out of hand
But it doesn’t really matter
Because I’ve left you
I don’t need someone who is going to judge
When I tell you how I feel about how you treat me you wont budge
It’s exhausting
And it’s getting in the way
Of the things I need to do for myself
There’s some many other things that I could do
Than be around you
There’s no future
There’s nothing that I am gaining spiritually mentally emotionally substantially from you
When I heard you talk lately
It was just such a turn off
You didn’t make me feel valued or special
You were acting self absorbed critical boring mean cocky for no good reason
You were just so fucked up
You just want to use me
Well that times up
I need to focus on myself
I’m tired of being taken for granted
I don’t deserve that treatment
If you don’t understand me
Try to.
If you don’t try to
Than how can you expect me to stick around?
I won’t.
I will stand in my truth.
It’s lonlier to be with you
Than to be without you
If i spend too much of a substantial time around you I start believing that I am not important or deserve to be treated with respect
It’s crazy making really
How a person can be so delusional abusive selfish and entitled
With no willingness to see how their behaviour is effecting others and eventually themselves
And not want to change
Like I won’t stand for it
My life is hard enough
I don’t need to be comming home to round 2.
Like what can I really call you
My frienemy?
Because you certainly don’t really act like a friend most of the time.
You just suck the life out of me.

Last updated March 14, 2019