Wasted Tears in My Fucking Feelings

Memories burn in my soul.
An eternal fire that never dulls.

A burrow in my heart
Like a huge scar
That I cover with a sticker

See? I’m great!
Never better.
But the scar never fades
The coals never go cold.

So many things
Left unresolved.
So many things
I never said.
So now a piece of you
Lives in my head.

So many moments
I wish we’d had.
Tears run down like rain
The ever blazing sad.

That one moment
I’ll never get
To tell you how I feel
And always have.

I invent new distractions
To run away from you
But I can’t run
Can’t hide
Every night it starts new.

And the worst part
About crying over you?
I wish all the more you could be here
And look at me like you do.

I tell myself
You would have loved this
Wasted tears
So many tears you’ve missed.

I could fill a well
Water a tree
Drown a river
But without you
They don’t set me free.

I dont feel better
Crying alone
Or looking into eyes of sympathy
Causing more pain as the tears flow.

I need you here
To count every tear
And calm my fear
I miss you my dear.