Baby's birthday, working. in Since OD is shutting down....

So I had baby’s birthday party on Saturday. No one came except for my brother, his girlfriend and my niece. It was alright other than my brother trying to start in about his CS issues with my best friend. I was annoyed because he wouldn’t shut up and I wasn’t about to argue. Like he doesn’t get that it was my child’s birthday party! Like annoying as fuck! They of course don’t bring her a present. I’m not trying to keep a scorecard of who’s done what for whom but I spent well over $100 for his child’s birthday AND took the night off meaning I lost money so that my child and I could attend her party. Some things will never fucking change.

A couple of days ago I wake up to a Facebook message from the girlfriend of my child’s sperm donor asking why he’s not allowed to see her. Um, he’s never cared much about seeing her and keeps himself away. I’m sorry that I’m not constantly up his ass with a broom chasing him around town begging him to be involved!! He’s never given a shit about being a Dad and that’s on HIM, that has nothing to do with me!!! It’s like everyone around him wants me to take responsibility for him being an absent parent even though that’s what he’s chosen!!

I’ve had 3 days off from work and it’s been super nice. I’m sad I have to go back tomorrow though. I’ve decided I’m gonna go back to school and I’m waiting to see if I got in. I’ve decided that it’s time to focus on being successful and building a better life for my child and myself. I can’t do the same job I’ve been doing forever because I don’t make enough and I’m sick of wasting my time.

It’s been crazy hot here the last couple of days and I’m pretty much over it. I’m trying to decide if I want to run and get some stuff at walmart or not. I just have no energy at all because the heat is so draining.

Anyways, baby is up so I’m gonna hang out with her. I’m gonna try and write more consistently from now on.