Let's Call It in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018

Let’s call it… Emotional Writer’s Block.

So… Friday was a giant fight with my Wife.

Saturday was an all day shopping trip for Wife’s CosPlay.

Sunday was quite literally a nothing day. Nothing. Wife being consumed by her thoughts and her misery. Me watching TV. Both of us drinking excessively.

Monday was sleeping in and going to hang out with family.

And emotionally? I’m just… feeling detached. Apathetic. A little depressed. Kind of “This is your life and it is ending one day at a time” kind of feeling. Like… not really in a mood to read, not really in a mood to write, not even in a mood to play video games (strangely).

I’m sure this is a logical emotional response to my current life situation. I don’t have a job and was rejected from a job that I was certain I would be offered. The other jobs I’ve applied to have not called me to interview. I don’t have much of a social life other than Weekends. My marriage is a joke… no affection, no compassion, no verbal or physical affirmations of love or desire or partnership.

I guess I just feel like… I have no impact or influence. I suppose that means I should do more to try to get out there. A good reminder that, should my resumes continue to go unanswered, I should check out the ARL or someplace that may be looking for volunteers.