A Sullen Riot Penetrating Through Her Mind... in Chapter 9 : Oil Above Water

I wanted 4-5kg off this week.
3.5kg came off.

Gutted.
Absolutely fucking gutted.

I missed the spot I wanted by 1.5lbs. All for the sake of 5000 calories that I couldn’t cut away.

I lost 7.5lbs this week but I wanted 9lbs. 9lbs would have put me in a new weight bracket.
Next week will be different. I need to get 2lbs off for the sake of my sanity. I’d be happy with 5lbs off. 9lbs would be ideal though.

The disappointment I feel right now lines my mouth, it’s tainting my skin. It’s making me feel dirty. It’s making me itch. If only I could unzip my skin and crawl out of my own flesh.

Next week WILL be different.