Will I Find My Inspiration? (February 6, 2013) in Old OD Entries

This is gonna be another one of those entries where I ask myself questions...most of which will not be answered.

Today in my psychology 301 class we had to listen to a presentation given by this guy who was applying for some sort of research position here at the university. He talked about what he did as a theoretical psychologist and the research that he was currently working on. It was a very interesting subject actually. He is studying marriage and family and the way it has evolved over the years and how we define it now. He also asked many other questions in his research that pertained to our cultural view of marriage and family...but I am getting off topic.

What made me want to write this entry is what he said when the presentation was over and we were allowed to ask questions.

A girl asked him "What made you decide to do this specific research?"

He said that he was actually doing research on the placebo effect in his early years of graduate school and he went to this lecture about marriage and was so excited and interested in it afterwards. He met up with his advisor and told him about it. His advisor asked him why he was doing research on the placebo affect if he was so interested in the concepts of marriage and its surrounding topics...he said that he had never really thought about it...he got emotional in the classroom and said that he struggled a lot with what he thought he wanted to do, but with that he had his epiphany and just found it. This ultimately getting him interested in the subject and doing this research.

The point that I am trying to make is that I hope to get to that stage one day. I love the field of psychology and I really feel that this is what I am meant to do, but I am waiting for that moment when I am truly passionate about something...when I know for sure what I want to do with my life.

When I am alone and my thoughts begin to wander I always come back to thinking about my current state.

What am I going to do with my life? When will I know? Am I going to be able to do this? Will I be happy about it? Will I feel fulfilled?

His enthusiasm toward what he was doing just really got to me. It was great to see someone so motivated in what they were doing, just seeing a person truly enjoy their career.

I hope I can say the same for myself in the future when I walk away with a degree.