Surprises and Annoyances (November 25, 2012) in Old OD Entries

So I am back from thanksgiving break...

Every time I come back from break it makes me miss my family and friends that much more. I want to hurry up and finish this year so it can be summer. I have never been this tense in my life...I am always thinking about every little aspect excessively...I need to stop that before I give myself an ulcer.

My break was okay but a lot of shit happened.

First of all my little sister called me. It was the first time I had heard from her in four months. I couldn't believe it. At first I was so fucking mad at her. I yelled and told her that she had a lot of nerve calling me, but my mom shushed me and grabbed the phone so she could talk to her. My mom started to cry and tell her how much she loved her she had not seen in her either. I guess my moms crying got me emotional and before I knew it all of my hateful feelings toward my sister melted away and I was talking to her on the phone and crying and telling her I missed her and loved her. My sister was already crying and it was just a really emotional moment. After we calmed down we caught up on each others lives.

My sister told me and my mom that she wanted to come home. We were so happy we thought that she hated us, but it turns out that she missed us and wanted nothing more than to come back home. I guess being away in the terrible environment that she was put in by our so called "justice system" she appreciated how good of a life she had and how much love was there for her. I am glad that she got to understand that she was wrong and she does regret what she did. I am thankful for that. I went and spent some time with my sister and I could tell that she had changed...I don't know what it was but her attitude was different and her face had sincerity in it.

The court date was postponed until a later date so I will not be able to go. I guess that is a good thing I don't really have anything to say. I don't know how it is going to go now considering my sister is going to tell the judge that she wants to come home. I really have no idea what is going to happen, but I am hoping that they will just forget about all this and let her come home so we can move on with our lives...but that is just naive wishful thinking. This crap will drag on for months to come I bet.

Other than that...I saw two of my best friends and we hung out and stuff, but I was a little disappointed that my other close friends could not be in town. We had made plans but some things came up. I guess I will see them when christmas break comes along. I am glad that it is getting closer to christmas break but the month of december is really annoying. I hate all the corny christmas movies that they show, the carol music, the smells, the crowded shopping centers, just everything. I don't celebrate christmas but I still have to endure the hype.

My time at home overall was pretty good but I wish I could have gotten more sleep. The drama there just kept me up plus my mom wanted me to stay up with her because she couldn't sleep for the same reasons. So insomnia was what I had the pleasure of having this week.

I am just counting the days until my final exams are over and I have my grades back. I want to have this nightmare over with. Too much stress on me.

Wishing myself luck on trying to sleep tonight.