Day 2 (Gift Of Gab Gibberish) in Hello

Surprisingly I wasn’t taken by the nicotine fiend today. Am craving one now but just ate. Gonna skip the shower and go to bed. A bit sore.

Tonight was better. Had two machines to run, kept going back and forth. I have not had a physically demanding night in a long time. Almost kinda miss it.

My old supervisor said day three is always the worse. I’ll find out. The other…two?…times I quit smoking I was really sick with the flu so never really felt the effects of withdrawal, instead I felt like death.

Chewed gum again all night, my jaws ache.
Ugh, feels like I’m talking out the side of my mouth with a drunken slur. So, that’s almost forty-eight hour timelapse since my last smoke, doing good, feeling good.

Got about a decent eight hours of sleep. It was amazing. Let’s see if I can replicate it.

The only activity I look forward to during the week is the quiet time I spend in bed reading before nodding off to sleep. It’s quiet, peaceful, and really the only ‘me’ time where I can fully unwind and get lost in another world. Seriously. Just finished Raising Steam by Terry Pratchett. One of those nights after reading I dreamed I was on a steam locomotive. It was a fun dream that made the whole train experience feel like I was on a big roller coaster by moonlight. It’s the moments like that I want to cherish and remember. Not the other bullshit that I’m knee deep in now.
Yeah, I think it’s bed time.

Last updated May 24, 2018