i never expected to live past 29. in 2017. got it.

‘m 30 btw. bday’s in aug. so.

no but um. i never. expected to live past 29. and yes bc of addictions and my eating disorder. i haven’t been diagnosed, w/......... well the only thing i’ve been diagnosed w/. well. ok. i’ve never been diagnosed w/ an ED.

when i was 25. something stupid happened. i did something stupid. i OD’ed. and that was part of the reason that. i’m so lucky to be here........not a day goes by that. i don’t think about it. wow.

cause. i’m. not supposed to be. wow. and yet somehow..........well here i am mr. arnstein. for better, or worse here. i am.

he wasn’t that happy in his last few months ever since dec. really. but who would be happy if they were that sick. the music of queen.........means more to me now. then it used to.

one of the things that’s so hard is that. he was a lot like me. kind.........humurous [sp?] firm when needed. he was. sounds like he was quite a guy.

he pushed on and. that’s a good lesson.