I'm Hungry... in meh...

Have you ever been hungry, thinking about things to eat, realizing your money is low, and it hurts your feelings? Then you suck it up and say to someone, “hey you want to do lunch?” and they say no because they just had a bowl of fruit and that hurts your feelings even more? Then they start a conversation about what you had in mind to eat and you talk about it and now you’re hungry and feeling stupid because they aren’t taking you to lunch and they want to talk about what you wanted for lunch. That is the type of shit that happens to me. Happened just a few minutes ago. So now, I’m about to eat a few pieces of strawberry candy because that’s all I have. I already ate my pack of parmesan cheese this week. People walk pass me everyday and perhaps every once in a while someone will ask if I need anything. I’m alone in this building. I don’t have a squad to call my own. (Now she is asking about lunch on the weekends)

At any rate, I see that I gave you all enough time to get some entries for me to read.

1) Busy time has started at work and after a rough start, I am on top of things. The only exception is that there are members I haven’t heard back from and some that are downright impossible to maintain contact with. They will have just sent an email and I immediately send one and then I don’t hear from them for many, many days. These will be the same people calling membership asking if their orders were placed, what’s the status of my tickets, my original dates and times aren’t available?? WHAT?? and trust; I have put my phone number in the email to call me to handle this quicker. Some refuse. Others have called back immediately or emailed immediately and handled their business. I like them. lol

I have been meaning to come and write about my usual random madness, but work has gotten the better of me.

2) I don’t know if I’ve chronicled my issues with my neighbor with the loud music blaring through my wall. Well, after so many days of doing this, I mentioned this to my landlady, yet again. She said he screamed and fussed for 20 minutes, lied yet again about trying to drown out kid noise, when haven’t had kids at my house in the evenings for a few months now really. He also lied about not having the music on past 10:00 when easily it goes until 11:30 most of the time. The thing that took the cake is that the creepy guy is there with him right now again. So he turned on music upstairs and the creepy guy was in the basement. Both sound systems were trying to drown each other out and that was like a wrestling match in my living room. I was so mad. I had said to myself that I was going to start calling the police. That will create nuisance reports and my landpeople will most likely have to go to court to ask what the problem is. I don’t want to do that. My last apartment was like that. And I actually like P&M. So after she spoke to him, she texted me and said that he said he was going to move. I said to myself, then move. No one will miss you. Don’t know how that will pan out, but okay.

3) I was going to write a TMI piece about menstrual cycles and the bullshit women have to go through during that time of the month. Like I…I…I wrote privately to a few of you why I don’t use tampons anymore and have reverted back to pads. This is actually a good thing because my flow has been, probably like a normal woman’s flow. I say that because all my life I’ve flowed hard and heavy. Didn’t really have cramps until after I had babies, but it’s always been this ridiculous hemorrhage. At any rate, even with a regular flow, they still have NOT designed pads or anything to freaking keep the flow in the pad and not seep to the panty. It is stupid as hell. If I’m sitting down and decide to stand up, I, for lack of a better term, gush to the front. Never have had much back flow that I have to worry about it being seen in the back of my light colored outfit. So I’ve taken to strategically placing pads in my panty. It looks T-shaped, with a pad going horizontal, through the legs, and “clipping” around the front of the panty. Then I take another pad and put it in the regular way and another the regular way, but it goes further back just in case I do a back flow. It is ri-fuckin-diculous. I believe with my lighter than my normal flow, I’m in the beginning stages of menopause and I can’t be more happy about it. I just want the foolishness to stop.

4) I’ve been looking at jobs again and have quickly just stopped. I found one that seemed perfect kind of, but it’s way out. Thinking this could be some kind of test, I said you know, I’m going to try for it anyway. Yeah. there were no links to apply for it. I guess I could send him my resume, but I don’t have an email address for him and I can seemingly no longer print to the printer upstairs at work. Yeah. So there’s that.

I just asked someone if they were going to lunch. She was going to Costco. Never mind.

I hope they at least have cookies at this meeting this afternoon.
I’ll get over this thing. I mean, I’ve not had lunch a few days this week. It’s all good.

And that completes, my foolishness for the day.
Take care…

Kindest regards,
Sister