Talan's friends suicide, Talan's reaction in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman

“Suicide doesnt take away the pain, it gives it to someone else”

Talan’s friend Casey was found dead this morning after being missing for 11 hours. When Talan found out Casey was missing he wanted to skip work to look for him. With much debate I convinced Talan to go to work. Casey committed suicide. Talan was very shook said he doesn’t understand. Casey has a wife and 2 beautiful children. Talan said he had a house car motorcycles his bills are paid for. Talan said Casey was very fortunate.

I had to explain to Talan that depression is not properly treated people do desperate things when they are not in the right frame of mind. That they don’t see the good because they focus on the bad.

Years ago I attempted suicide after my baby miscarried in my 20s. I didn’t know I was pregnant till I lost her.It took me months to get myself in the right frame of mind. Instead seeing a psychiatrist I wrote diary entries to help myself see reason. I used to write letters to Emily the baby I lost apologising that I accidentally lost her. In my early 20s I did call the suicide hotline and talked to them. I even talked with my mom she is a psych nurse. I knew she knows what to do.With my diary I saw the light again. Some people are not that lucky.

Phone number to the suicide hotline is 1-800-273-8255. Talk to them see a psychiatrist talk to your friends whatever it takes just keep living!

Talan is angry has been lashing out on me because he is in the anger stage of grief. I told him it is okay to be angry but it isn’t okay to lash out on others who don’t know your pain. I told him I love him and will tolerate it but other people won’t tolerate his bullshit. He is at work. Cry it out if needed and get back to work we have a school to guard. He called me a bitch. I told him I am only a bitch cause I am right. He appologized to me later in the day. He said I was just trying to help he realizes it.

He wanted us to go to the courthouse so we can get married this week. He wants children and want to find purpose in his life by making it official. I told him we been together since 2013. I want to get married in celebration not during times of grief. I told him we will wait till he gets over his friends death. I don’t want our wedding associated with suicide.

I hope Talan’s emotional outbursts calm down before he fusses wrong person and get fired. If he needs me at Casey’s funeral for emotional support I will even though I am not sure if I ever met Casey before.

I hope Casey’s family heart heals during times of grief. I hope Casey’s children understand He loved them very much!

I wish I had a happy entry to write but with life you got to take the bad with the good. I hope this will be okay.