not havin a great night. in 2018

this is from earlier:

2:20 a.m. atm. at 1:20 i had the substance thing happen. as i was reaching for it in my closet i was crying and i thought ‘you don’t have to do this’ and ‘no but my ex didn’t have to verbally abuse me either or threaten to rape me’.

and then. i drank....... it was 4 of........

and then. actually. i felt better. well as said i felt calmer. and in that moment it felt good to be back.

no i didn’t have to do that. but i’ve been sick cause of withdrawl and. so be it.

yeah. i couldn’t make it 6 days. and sometimes. that’s the reality.

‘it was 4 of’ being the listerine.

Last updated July 16, 2018