She Stands Apart From The Crowd... in Chapter 9 : Oil Above Water

So…

I finally got an appointment for the rape counselling place. It was today. You know your life’s been a complete mindfuck when the counsellor is trying to remain impartial but even her jaw drops at aspects of your life. You know something, I might actually be fucking stronger than I give myself credit for, because how the fuck else am I still here? Today I actually said the words out loud, that I feel trapped in this life because The Boy Wonder killed himself before I managed to. Strangely enough that wasn’t the darkest point of the session, nor was it the bit where her jaw dropped. So both my therapists are telling me the same thing, I have a LOT going on in my head. So both of them, the GP and the few people that have an inkling in to what’s going on are all saying the same thing, yet here I am still unable to tell my mother because she’s completely oblivious to there being anything wrong. I’m not expecting her to be telepathic, but either she’s completely oblivious, or she’s just doing what she does best and is sticking her head in the sand. It’s probably for the best that it remains unsaid with her, it means it can’t be used against me as ammunition.

Last updated March 20, 2018