yesterday mentoring in 2017. got it.

this is from Tues.:

‘my mentor doesn’t actually mentor, me a whole lot since there’s not much i require assistance w/. honestly the main reason i meet w/ her is cause i get money to do so. [well also and to keep up appearances.]. if it weren’t for those 2 things. ...... i [probably] wouldn’t. anyway.

so last night when we’re at the store. i wasn’t mean to her exactly but i wasn’t super pleasent either. 1. she broke my trust. the reason isn’t the point. and again i’m not interested in the reason. 2. i’m tired of being pleasent to her. 3. i have a TBI. yeah so she has this weird thing where she laughs at things that aren’t that funny. it’s not offensive it’s just weird. so i don’t like when. i’m at the store in an aisle and um. someone steps back to let me pass [as] i feel [like] i’m on display. [really i’m not a bakery item. anyway.]. so someone had done that and so i went to an i think semi empty aisle. anyway when she i ran into each other she laughs and goes ‘oh there you are’ [again. not interested in the reason] and i’m ‘yeah’, annoyed. like ‘yeah here i am you found me go you’. like ‘yeah that’s great good for fukin you. wanna cookie?’. [yes. i’m that person. this is one of the reasons i don’t like when people go ‘good for you’. anyway.]. like it’s not that funny.

it was kindof. in a sense one of our worst days. bc of that. but also. honestly [?]. there’s a certain sense of freedom in being that person. in being that person who. isn’t that pleasent to her. instead of being all nice and everything. the way she is. if it were anyone else i might care a little more. i didn’t argue w/ her or anything. i knew it would happen one of these days. ‘