i don't want to talk about it/i don't want sympathy in 2017. got it.

this again is from Mon.:

so. i’m going to talk about the thing i don’t want to talk about? uh ok a lot of sense that makes.

my grandfather. he wasn’t that great of a guy and we weren’t that close so. No one has to say anything about it in fact please don’t. it is what it is. i don’t want sympathy. actually. acknowledge that it happened and that i don’t want to talk about it and that someone’ll be here when i do. but that’s it.

i should feel sad about it. like for me but i’m just. not. it’s sad for my mom but not for me. i’m flippant and dismissive about it. like yeah people die. we weren’t close. it is what it is. i’m fine.

stuff happens ya know? and this is life and this is what happens in life