talking to a lady on the SU chat. notes. in 2017. got it.

this is from Thurs.:

‘’such experiences of being overpowered..........make you feel unsettled.......’

so then i had to go and look up what ‘overpowered’ meant. it means: ‘to be to intense for, to overwhelm’.

yeah. those moments when the cops blocked me. were intense. [i was scared. of course it was intense.].

so........ ‘

Fear is a feeling induced by perceived danger or threat that occurs in certain types of organisms, ‘

btw ‘induced’ means to bring about.

Ya know. no one ever talks about the freeze response. cause yes that’s a thing. that’s the 3rd option the other option. It means not doing much due to fear. And that was my response Tues. night.

That night. I feared for my sex life. in that. er. I feared for my sexual well being. I wasn’t too sure. If I was, in any danger but I didn’t intend to find out.

Ok I’m a feminist. I’m also sexist. So. oh bc they’re 2 guys they can just. stand in my way and block it? like no f** no. Give a woman her power and her space. If they’d stayed to the side of me and talked then that would’ve been fine. it’s the ‘where’, the location of where, they were standing.

Oh ok I see how it is. ‘oh so it’s perfectly ok to intimidate her. she’s small’. No I don’t f care. Regardless of size. f no. People don’t get to do that w/o some kindof reaction from me. there’s actually a website out there dedicated to. this. it lists the reasons why something like that is never ok. i forgot what it’s called........

In Greek mythology. it’s Dionysius [sp?] [i think it’s him]. well he raped someone..........and then at some point later got turned into an orchid. how’s that for justice?

i’ve been raped. why would i want to feel powerless.