i don't remember the last time i was this afraid of being raped. *Un. Det. in 2017. got it.

Firstoff. I haven’t been raped in a little over 5 yrs.

well. I do remember, the last time I was this afraid but not vividly. god......i..... I don’t like feeling trapped I’m actually afraid of it. There’s a reason I don’t take cabs. And that’s the reason.

And last night.........when those 2 cops were standing in front of me. I felt trapped. like had I left. something not good would’ve happened.

So. that’s one reason I didn’t go out today.

The other is. I’m paranoid of what’ll happen if I go out at my usual time and the cops see me and they intrude. cause that’s what it was an intrusion. And I don’t want it to be a worse situation next time. And maybe it won’t but right now. I don’t intend to find out.

and by ‘last night’ i mean tues. as this is from yesterday.