holy fuk. it's been a long day. in 2017. got it.

so. well firstoff when I was by the trees that are. in the residential area I apparently fell. and during that fall i evidently passed out. [for a minute.]. but somehow landed in a sitting position. i’m ok. [well. i’m not great but i didn’t like. hit my head. thank god.].
yeah a lady saw me and she’s ‘are you ok? i saw you fall and......’ i was to embarassed to admit i had, fallen. and so I’m ‘no i was actually sitting but i’ve done the same thing misinterpreted things so’. [well. i was sitting. but there’s just more to that then that.].
so. after that i was really embarassed. i actually feel better, when no one says anything.
so. um I stood you know to leave. to go to walgreen’s. when I saw a car pull up. and at first i thought it was this guy Ru i’d gone on a date w/ a few yrs. back. um.......no. It was. a cop. [oh god did i do something wrong?]. and that’s when things got well. interesting to say the least. So he asked if i was ok and i’m ‘yeah’ [i wasn’t great but i was w/ it enough to answer his question] my name birth date where i’d come from where i was headed. what brought me out there. [‘i have depression and they say excercise helps’. well i do i’m not like. embarassed about it or anything.]. he’s ‘it’s cold it’s getting dark so.........’. right well. that usually doesn’t have an impact on when i go out.
well. what happened was [i’m a little unclear on all the details right now] he called his co-worker. and then the first guy [and actually i asked what the plan was] called the lady and told her i was ok.
i was so confused the whole time. and I told him that. ‘i’m so confused........this is all new to me’ and he’s ‘i’m here to help’. ok i didn’t say, anything to him cause well. fukin cops but no, they’re not. Honestly they just wanted my info so they can like. ‘check up’ on me if that happens again. yeah. i believe people do things for malicious reasons particularly cops.
1. i was honest w/ him. i didn’t give him my address just the 2 streets nearby
and 2. i stayed. i’d turned away from him at the beginning. but i did not leave. Had I left. it would’ve looked like i had something to hide. [ok so i do. but not any weaponry/drugs or anything like that. i even mentally went through my purse. and the funny thing is. i saw a shooter - alcohol that is - on the way there and had wanted to pick it up. good thing i didn’t]
3. maybe I’m overthinking this. or maybe not. but the other thing I did was I. kept my hands where he could see them. [i’ve never owned a gun in my life and i don’t like guns.]. I’d read online. that if someone [ok so this applies to being in a car] um. if someone in a car reaches for their wallet the cops will think that person has a gun. a. i don’t carry a wallet 2 or weaponry and 3. like i said. no guns.
so. i kindof didn’t appreciate them stopping and all that. like yall need to mind your own damn
business. [except. the citizens are, their business so that doesn’t quite work.].
um. so........oh right. then they called the lady. alrite. While i’m waiting there [since a they told me to and 2. cops] i’m thinking about like. asking for a female officer to come, or something.
well. so the lady came. again i did not leave.
so. I got in her van. The 2nd officer explained to her what had happened. yeah after he’d told her that and left. i told her ‘i was so confused that whole time.’. she’s ‘so you don’t need to go to the ER?’ ‘oh no’.
[oh like hell i’m going. no like i passed out. it’s scary worrisome but yeah.........no not goin.].
so she. took me to walgreen’s. where i went in for a few mins. got warm.
After a bit. I went to um............Starbucks. I was actually more then a bit disoriented on my way there. cop was right. he said something to the other cop about ‘a disoriented party’. i’m really embarassed when people say things like about me which is why i won’t admit to them. like no yeah totally fine nothin to see here move on please thank you. like honestly i was fine. [well. but no actually.]. just please leave me alone.
i um. went to Starbucks waited for 10 mins. figured out that i had, actually fainted as up untill then i wasn’t quite sure what had happened.
um. so after awhile i got a.....blueberry scone and their regular chai.
and the fun doesn’t end there.
so while. I was eating my um..........scone and having my chai my mom called. well apparently. what had happened was. that. The cops had called her. which i didn’t know they were going to as they hadn’t told me. yeah see this is a reason i don’t trust people. We had. a talk about all that had transpired. i got a little emotional a little upset w/ her then stopped myself. She’d told me we’d talk more about it on Mon. the only reason. my going out sched. is changing is bc now the cops are involved. if it weren’t for them.........
fukin a. i’m sorry but fukin a. and also. godfukindamnit.
more stuff happened while at starbucks nothin to do w/ the cops.