maybe..... in 2017. got it.

my dad. was diagnosed w/ asperger’s when i was in college. and, for a few yrs. after i wanted to er ‘fix’, him. well when i came back to denver from college. [i went to college in fl only for 2 yrs.]. i dated. and i remember talking to this guy Ru about the whole......asperger’s situation and he said something like ‘well. one day you’ll kindof have to accept it’ and one day. i did. i don’t remember what day that was or what age i was or the moment. i just know that. one day. i did.

i stopped. er wanting to ‘fix’ something that maybe was never broken. things just. worked differently in my dad’s brain then they did mine. i just. didn’t fully understand it at the time.

and that’s how this is. i might not ever get her back. but i’ll still be here. maybe. one day i’ll stop wanting to fix this. and i’ll stop. wanting her back. maybe it’ll just be. ok. i have a TBI. let’s go from there.

cause. i can’t, go back to who i was not fully.

but that day. that i stop wanting to fix this. that day. that i stop wanting to go back. isn’t today or tomorrow or next wk. or probably next month.