Highs and lows in In the Kingdom of Suzu

I have to expect that there are going to be highs and lows, possibly within the same hour and no matter what course this takes, it is going to be hard. I envision myself being in a jumbly state for a long time. I just want to say again, “thank you” to everyone for your kind support, words, virtual hugs, it helps a lot, more than I can adequately say or express even if I don’t get to individually respond. The whole situation is so draining. If Jeff could give me more of an assurance that he really wanted this to work, I would feel better but he can’t and that is why I think I am jumbly. In talking yesterday, this has been going on for the last six months that he became involved with her. We had almost 22 yrs together and up until a few years ago, things were good but then our parents dying, my knees, cancer, things changed. I am hoping that 22 years will, for lack of a better word, win out over the six months of his relationship with her once we can get into therapy. I. read your entries and even if I don’t note, please know that reading about your lives, is also a comfort to me. Thank you again from the bottom of my heart.