oh please don't guilt trip me. and depression seriously. in 2017. got it.

Yeah so I told Pat’s brother that my depression had worsened. and he said something about............um........ SU idealisation relating to what i’d just told him. i.e. ‘i’ll follow........’. ok A i’m still here. and 2. this is why. i told someone. also. this is why. i blogged/am blogging about it. cause if there’s one thing i’ve learned. it’s. tell someone even if it is a tree. just tell.

it felt like. a guilt trip honestly. like. he’s wanting me to feel guilty for SU thoughts when the only things i’ve done are a told him and 2 blogged about them. like i said.

like no please. please don’t do that. whenever someone i know is feeling that way i blatantly tell them i’m worried about them. i just. no. my rapist [3rd guy] guilt tripped me after he’d raped me. i............um.............

if. I end up not talking to Pat’s brother for some time due to this. i’ma keep blogging. maybe not always about my depression and stuff. but yeah.

also. I don’t think some people take depression seriously. in the past [and i’ve probably mentioned this before] whenever on fb i’ve posted something about having a difficult time or ‘i need your help’ i get. nothing. i know i get like that a lot but here’s the thing: a lot of that is due to depression. like ‘oh she’s fine’. they don’t know that.

i know how bad depression can get. bc i have it. i’ve been........i’ve done.........i won’t detail. [btw not in a long time.]. and i know how serious depression is.

i just. um. ...........