i completely spaced. and tulips. glass vases. *Con./TA/BI in 2017. got it.

this is from. tues.

so usually. when it’s 40 - 50 out i wear 5 coats. [yes i know but i’m small so.]. and i remember seeing my blue coat on my bed. but i didn’t connect that. w/ the fact that ‘oh i should also put that, coat on’. [/want to.]. i completely spaced on that.

oh yeah. so yes the text i sent my mentor from my email had sent. but she didn’t get it.

i did somethin to my shoulder. my body is just. wow. actually the human body can put up w/ a lot amazingly enough. i was like this before my BI cause of my ED.

um........so the other day i was saying something about: ‘

‘this is.ya know my world right now. my circle. my circle of me and the small fire and not inviting anyone. oh...........oh i get it. like a circus. or rather. being the only one in the circus tent. yeah. i like that. [unless i go places and then i don’t.]. it’s quiet there. and not such a dizzying spectacle of all the things going on. i like the circus. [old fashioned kind.]. but i couldn’t handle all the stuff of my head-circus right now. or even. the outside-world-‘circus’. ‘

yeah. the singularity of that. i like um. singularity. like tulips in glass vases. [well. ok a, tulip.].

um. the day i got the concussion/HI/BI the 15th. i um. like i somewhat remember getting up, going into starbucks, getting chai and like a brownie or. w/e it would’ve been. and being in a lot of pain. but i don’t remember what happened after all that well. if it weren’t from my blog entries from that day [other blog] and the um. following day. i’d probably remember it less well then.i do now. i must’ve done what i usually do...........i......... also. i don’t remember thinking ‘shit i just got a concussion’.