oh wow. overstim. *Con./TA/BI in 2017. got it.

this is from um Mon.:

so. about 15 - 20 mins. ago i called my mom back. as she’d um called me. well. so tom. her and my.......my aunt want me to have dinner w/ them. which means i’d go to. her house tom. via the lady. [the lady knows about this btw.]. yes ok and that’s fine.

i. as i’ve mentioned my phone’s been on ‘silent’. phone calls only mean more stiumlation. and i............oh. wow. well my mom called me a few times yesterday. and we were talking about it um. today and she’s ‘well i need you to answer. the same day’. oh ok. we’re rarely put out by each other. if someone doesn’t tell me when then. it’s like some vague distant time in the future. i.e. if someone were to say to me ‘let’s go to the movies’. um like today or next wk.? i don’t mind going/doing w/e it is [well. ok so that depends] i just need the ‘when’.

i’m a little defensive right now. i’m a little ‘well ya know what?’. ok..........ok. a. it’s not anyone’s fault i now have a BI. well........no. but more stimulation doesn’t help. which. i knew it would happen at some point in time. as i’ve had like. um. well at least 2 days prior to this one of it not.