A good day. in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.

Good days are becoming less and less rare these days, ever since I made a decided effort to start looking at my life with a more positive outlook.

Today was a good day.

I slept in until about 12:30 in the afternoon because I was having this dream that just wouldn’t stop, and it was a pleasant dream, so I kept just letting myself sink back into it.
I don’t remember a whole lot about the dream, but I remember I was flying a lot, and I was at this beautiful girls family party…I felt very welcomed, that was nice.

I woke up and Brittany hit me up asking me if I was working today, which I wasn’t, and she told me that she was getting off early today, so I should meet her and Lex in Costa Mesa to go eat at this awesome little burger shop.

So I get to the burger shop, and I listen to some good music and smoke a bowl while I’m waiting for them…they arrive and we eat and hang out and have a good time.

Later, we go back to Brittany’s and end up pulling tarot cards for the coming year.
I got a super positive and hopeful reading…I pulled a ten of pentacles and a four of wands.
Basically, all signs are pointing that this is going to be a year of fulfillment and abundance for me, and it was strongly suggested that I share the wealth with my friends and family who helped me get to where I am going.

I can actually feel that that’s true.
I mean, so far this year has already been way better than all of 2017.
I’ve seriously had a pretty great month, I mean, it’s had some ups and downs, but that’s to be expected when you’re bi-polar, isn’t it?

I think the real indicator that this year has been so much better so far is not how many ups and downs I’ve had, but the way I’ve been handling them.
I’ve had a couple of REALLY depressed days where it was hard to get out of bed and be a human, but I never gave into the delusions that I was going to feel broken and depressed forever, I always had the knowledge that I was going to get through it like I’ve always gotten through it.

So, after the tarot reading, Lex and I got really stoned…I mean REALLY stoned, to the point where I suggested going to this coffee house where all the waitresses wear nothing but lingerie, and Brittany was like, “How about you save that for when you and John are hanging out.” and I was like, “Who is John? I don’t know any John?”

…but John is the guy that I currently play music with and I’ve been friends with him for like 12 years.

I was stoned.

So Lex and I start getting the munchies and Brittany decides that she wants to go on an adventure, so we head out to Garden Grove because that’s as good of a place as any for an adventure.
We ended up going to my favorite restaurant in the entire world, and neither of the girls had ever been there before, but they both ended up absolutely loving it.
It’s Korean style Chinese food, and it’s the most amazing thing in the entire world, and tonight they were just killing it…everything tasted so god damn good.

Anyway, that was my day.
I feel like it’s important to document the good days just as much as it’s important to sit and spew bullshit for the sake of venting.

Oh, also I just found out that OD is coming back, and they didn’t delete any of the content from the site, so I am going to be able to get my old diary back and finally finish the project I was working on with it.

That’s also some pretty great news.

Now, I just need to get through one more lunch shift tomorrow and then I’m on my way to SLC to go see some of my friends and family, so that’s pretty exciting too.

Good times…good times.

Alright, thanks for reading.
I love you, I’ll talk to you soon, okay?

-Dane