well i feel stuck. midst. eye. *Con./TA/BI in 2017. got it.

and phone calls.

well i feel stuck. yes i know i’ve mentioned this before. No in that. I feel stuck in the middle of this. in the midst. the eye. cause the beginning part was when i got, the concussion. and now. i’m in the middle. [thing is. the eye of a hurricane is when things are calm.].

to paraphrase a movie i’ve seen: yeah well everything waist down works fine. [ATU.]. actually..........no everything waist up, works. just not the way it should. oh wow.

yeah so like i mentioned. At some point earlier i.texted my mentor from my mentor from my email and um. cancelled on her. didn’t state the reason/s. [financial and overstimulation. er not wanting that to happen rather.]. Well today apparently when I was sleeping. she called. and she called 7 times. but if i cancel on someone then that means. don’t call. i don’t know what could’ve possibly have been that important for her to call that many times in an hr. my god. i’m not really asking either so nor do i care to know why. If someone calls me that many times it’ll either annoy me and I won’t call them back or. I’ll think something’s wrong. but in this case it annoyed me. and i say ‘apparently’ bc my phone was on ‘silent’. and that’s one of the reasons why. so that I wouldn’t feel obligated to call her back were I to hear/feel my phone buzz. also. i’m not taking a whole lot of phone calls right now i haven’t been for awhile. but the real reason is so i wouldn’t feel obligated. like yeah. i know she called. but don’t keep calling me. just cause i haven’t called someone back doesn’t mean i didn’t get their call. it just means. i haven’t called them back. that only serves to drive me away.

and it’s not even like. a real problem or anything. [no BIs, rape those kindof things are real problems.]. but it bothers me.