earn the fukin right. and hearing. in 2017. got it.

this is from earlier:

So I’ve been watching ‘big bang’ and that sounds different too.like muffled. and i think i know why things sound different. I had most of my hearing in my um. right ear even before. ‘the accident’ which is why i turn my right side to people/they have to be on my right side. my left however. even before..... but now i’m like oh wow. yeah....... [btw. i um. listen to tv shows/music at a reasonable volume. loud/happy music actually causes anxiety.].

So. some time ago. well at the store my um. .............. EBT card didn’t work. and i asked someone one of the store clerks Ashley about it. So then a few mins. later I was going to purchase an item w/ it. even though she’d told me it wouldn’t work. cause i won’t listen. ok now that’s not the part that um.............bothers me. What bothers me about it. is i happened to overhear the woman talking to h er co-workers about me. and she said something to them about ‘i think she has brain..........’.

Firstoff. 1. at the time. well this was before the concussion.

1. i’m sorry but earn the fukin right.

2. even if she had been right about. [which, again, this was before the concussion/ ‘accident’ .]. like. don’t talk about someone like that when it’s obvious they can hear. some people might be really sensitive about that. [and now that i’ve had. um. ‘the accident’ i am.]. if she wants to talk to her co-workers about me that’s fine. but either a take it outside or go like.somewhere where i can’t hear them.

the day i heard that i remember thinking.feeling. that i hated that. like i felt like. ‘oh well since i think she does. she’s like fragile, in some way’‘. yeah i’m/my brain is injured, ok? but i’m not. that doesn’t mean i’m.......... yeah ever since i’ve been having more um.............trouble w/ things.

and, ya know. i was thinking about this last night and that’s the perfect thing to say. ‘i’ve been having trouble w/ things lately’. yeah. i have. moreso then usual.

i haven’t gone to that particular store in awhile. that’s not why exactly but it’s a good thing i haven’t been.