how i'm doing. [fall on Mon.]. in 2017. got it.

i’m. actually i’ve been researching online my symptoms [bruise, frustration, dizziness. i won’t go on] and. falls. and i’ve started to understand things a bit more. everything i’m going through is completely normal. i’m bruised i’m frustrated as hell i’m a peach. and. i’m not the only one.
it’s going to take time to recover from this. i’m also. being more careful. oh i had a panic attack this morning not full blown. and weirdly enough after i felt better.
on fb i posted my feelings and my friend Mark’s ‘hugs’. he’s a good one for that sortof thing.
i’m. a lot of things right now.
one of the things i’m hoping not to do. as much as i want to. is drink. it’s not how much i drink as that, i’d drink. drinking causes dizziness so........yeah probably won’t for awhile. i’m not sure about that and i’m the type to where. if i’m not sure about something i’ll probably put it to the side for awhile. i’ve been crying more then usual. for a few minutes each time.
not that i take pills........in the past that hasn’t gone well for me.
i um. just a lot. a big life event.