Skin Deep in Current Events

I got myself so flustered this morning when I woke up. Yesterday I did everything I didn’t want to do. I went out to eat, I went shopping and made purchases that I did not need, I went to the casino and lost a substantial amount of money and then I got drunk before bed. I was hysterical about it all before I had a chance to regret it but that’s not the part that got me so worked up. My friend and I went downtown too take photos for our Instagrams. I am aiming to create a new one to grow on and what got to me was how unattractive I felt when I looked through my photos.
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I went vegan to see if it would clear up my cystic acne. Now my acne is gone, my pores are empty and my complexion has never been this fair. I have been getting laser facials and treatments the last couple years to help with the scarring and the results are slow but at least they are happening. I don’t know why I got so devastated about my looks. I think we all as human beings go through this at one point in our life. I am aging and my looks are fading and I need to accept that. I had a lot of opportunities in my life that I turned down because of my insecurities about my skin. I can still go forward with the things I want in my life if I can just find a way to let this go.