Latch stuck on car, bill worries, repairs needed in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman

During the storm the latch on my door froze.The door wouldnt shut. I called dad asked him give my ditections to fix it. As always he cussed me saying he dont like my fiancé if i didnt leave his house this wouldnt be a problem. I left because he threatened to kill me back in September 2016. Talan got angry started cussing him back. I cried more. I told Talan lets go on youtube see of we can find directions. He beat my latch because he was angry with a hammer. After he calmed down after 5 minutes we had it fixed thanks to youtube videos. I love that modern technology can help you fix just about everything.

As a kid i help my dad build a house, repair the house he has been living in. I spent hours in the garage since my childhood repairing his cars. As an adult we tore down work on his vehicles and my cars. I help him remodel my grandmother and aunts house including replacing water lines.

I enjoy doing repairs but i always fear i might do something wrong and hurt someone. Dad refused to teach me wiring he said it is to much a risk pay someone to do it. I always fear a house might burn down due to the lack of my knowledge.

Since i bought this mobile home i often ask my dad how to do repairs i am not familiar with. His answer is it is not his problem if i just stayed at his house he could have done all the repairs but i left due to abuse. I left because in my house i had no water for 6 months and the floor fell in. Dad refuse to fix it unless i lived by his unrealistic expectations. My entire life was controlled by his rules. I want a family but i cant as long as he wants to control how i live.

My mom help me buy this mobile home in secret dad doesnt know. She moved me out of an old meth house our old landlord Mary was renting. She swore she cleaned it up after they busted the dealers but Mary’s house was poisoning me. There was mold on the walls everything is broke, meth poisons leached in the walls i was constantly sick. Mom bought the mobile home since we left Mary house both me and Talan health has improved significantly. I think mom saved our lives. I am grateful for my mom. I still owe money on the mobile home.

My power bill this month is $400. I am going to research if heat tape is safe to use on plastic pipes. If it is safe i hope we wont have to put a heater underneath the trailer again. I think heat tape is my answer to frozen pipes.In the spring i want to replace the old underpinning. To much air circulates underneath the mobile home it doesnt heat well.

All my tax money is going to mom as payment on the trailer. I am really grateful she help me get this mobile home. It was built in 1987 but been remodeled. I think we might have paid to much for it but we were given a fridge,stove,dishwasher,heat pump, storage building, table chairs, a decorator well outside on our porch, given a bar, an island for our kitchen with all those items we felt like the price is fair.

When should the emergency heat or regular heat be used? I been researching how to use a heat pump. I think i am using emergency heat at the wrong time raising my bill.

I thought the older you get you learn enough to get by. I am wrong. I have been doing research left and right. After college i never thought i need my research skills to learn how to fix my mobile home or deal with life problems. My research become more and more everyday.

My life goal is to teach myself how to build a house. I am trying to figure out how to pay for a little at a time. This wont happen anytime soon.

I am interested in stocks and bounds but i have no collateral. I have been trying figure out how to take the money i have and roll it over to make more money without fear of not being able to pay my bills. Talan been interested in a company called Acorn. He put some money in it. I asked him do more research.

Here i am with all these dreams making $9.50 an hour full time job during the summer when school is out either i go on unemployment or i need another job. I will of course get another job till fall. Bills do not stop just because school lets out.

I hope to write a diary entry someday not worrying about bills or repairs but today isnt that day