Pink in through the looking glass.

I started having tailbone pain last week, the same type of pain that I had when I was pregnant. Then I kept waking up in the middle of the night, also not unlike the insomnia I experienced when I was pregnant. And then my period was late.

I was hopeful. And scared. But so hopeful.

I decided to take a test this morning. I peed in a cup and set it down to wipe. Faint pink blotted the toilet paper. Of course.

I should have been 20 weeks today, halfway through. Instead I’m not pregnant at all.